I can admit that what Optimus Prime once said, "Fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing." Although the weight of everything hit me all at once, years of buried pain, insecurities, and self-worth issues became extremely close to ending it all. Sympathy or pity, inspiring were words, actions spoke at large. Everything was worth listening to, imagine Elie Viesels, author and novelist, "1984". Mentioning meant everything in a variety of growth, love, happiness, and lessons to come. Nothing wasn't just an action but harder to recognize through self-love. A imagination an instant and constant imagery of hyphenation with the word "Self" (self-exploration for example). I thought that the month of May was not just a month out of the twelve months in a year but a calendar of days that can brought change. The moment I recognized that my community college has challenged me for plagiarism in college,I began to change into an individual that can be felt into anything. This was the year 2012, where I got ti vote for the first time since I had turned 18, the same year were time never stood still but kept viciously going. A American scandal surfaced because of amount of significant change in culture, and immediately steadily learned how to gather my instincts and be who I am till this day. Day by day it was morbid, my every single emotions being tested, challenging to prove but necessary to provide was a fight within myself. The best narrative I thought that can take the midst of my memory during this time was the novel 1984, a novel based on the human condition. Me vs me for 10 years, I am 32 years old now, and American scandalized today. This was about my change in culture, as a culture-maker. Each day encountered close encounters to anything unseen. I graduated college with higher education, I dropped out of Yale University, now studying in Los Angeles Film School. I remember the time the movie Interstellar came out. Throughout this movie, this movie came out 2014, each scene I gasped about learning placement in time as  time machine as the key characters in the movie. I agreed that what is meant for you yo do, the universe will keep making you think in the lines how and what failure is? I thought about what failure allowed in code and theory? In the mid-21st century, humanity faces extinction due to dust storms and widespread crop blights. Joseph Cooper, a widowed former NASA test pilot, works as a farmer and raises his children in Interstellar. Interstellar he surpasses time and challenges the midst of existence. Interstellar is that change and amount of change; the wrong thing to do becomes a secret, a song on repeat, so repetitive that says critical remains an image of self-imagery. Beauty fades but beauty doesn't. It folds, and it manipulates and before this, it took pandemonium. I made my own path. I rediscovered my carbon foot print and asked ow to shape the digital landscape. Never been the type to let anything see right through me. The three little words of an "I love you" can mean so much and be returned so little too. I realized that fame has a price to it, the amount of secrets that keep it a status isn't worth it. Accept that you might be the villain in someone else's story, even if you didn't do anything wrong. People often reshape you into whatever fits their narrative so they can make sense of their own story. Ego is a tricky deceiver. Focus on your truth and keep moving forward.

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Camille Nicole San Juan June 2025